I am twenty-three years old and I have never had a boyfriend. I've wanted one but I am always rejected by guys because I am not pretty. I've tried improving my looks by wearing make-up, doing things with my hair, but it doesn't work. People usually like me too, most people say I am likable and I have many friends who are men but none have ever been interested in me beyond friendship. A lot of the times I end up falling for the guys who are my friends and I am rejected. This is something that happened recently and then the guy who is still a friend and a girl who is a good friend started dating. They haven't come out in the open but it's obvious. Things like this always happen to me. It happened in the summer too, I was rejected by a guy friend and then he found another girl and started to date her. I am fairly thin, and I've started to work out with a personal trainer just because I have a bit of belly I want to get rid of. So I know it's my face that guys don't like. I am starting to think that I should just give up on finding anyone, because what guy is going to want a twenty-three year old ugly virgin? It was always my dream to have my own family someday, but I think it's time to forget that dream. I've always been an independent person, so it's not too big of a deal. I don't know what I am missing out on so I don't feel too bad. I have some single friends who have been in relationships and are looking for that good feeling again, and they are depressed because they can't have it. I've never experienced that, so I am lucky in a way that I don't have to long for it. I think I am just going to make my main goal in life to be financially secure and to have fun. Without a man in my life I don't have to be tied down anyway.
None of my friends know I'm a virgin still. I tell people I'm not because it's not like anyone is ever going to find out anyways.